"What do you want to be when you grow up?"
Is it bad if the answer to that is unknown??? I was talking to a friend tonight about what I was planning on doing for college and such... I'm going to college but to be absolutely honest I don't know what I want to do.
We were talking about plans that we have and how far we are planning... One thing that I have to remember is God IS in control of everything.... Right now I'm struggling with getting a job... Saving for college... and getting everything done that I need to do... Being an adult is hard!!!
So something that I have decided to do... Is focus on every day... Go from day to day.
So what is it I need to do today?
Hmm:
Love God and remember he is in control
Work on becoming the man that He wants me to be and that Natalie needs me to be
breathe
Live a life I can be proud of
Be spontaneous
Be the best that I can be
Just some random thoughts...
Friday, September 30, 2011
Monday, September 19, 2011
Whovian theology and the Turbo Swag
"we are all just stories in the end... Just make it a good one... A story about a daft old man who stole a blue box and ran away... "
So I was watching Dr. Who yesterday... It was the end of season 5 and the doctor(matt smith) was again faced with the possibility of never existing... He was literally going backwards through his friends memories... And it was up to her to remember him so that he could exist... He ends up in amelia's bedroom when she was about 7 years old... she is dead asleep and he sits there... The line above is the beginning of what he has to say...
It's an interesting thought isn't it? Do we all just end up as stories in the end? Are we all just the figment of someone else's imagination?
Unlike the doctor we can't live forever... A) I wouldn't want to.. B) I don't think I could live with myself. But, what we do, can live forever... There is truth hidden behind that line... "we all end up as stories in the end." nobody lives forever but what we do can.
Now one of my favorite songs at the moment is called "turbo swag" by a band called attack attack! (us) and one of the most repeated lines in that song is...
"listen to what I say!
Do something that will last forever!"
The reason I'm tying these two together is because they work together... You only become a story if you do something that will last forever for someone... It doesn't have to be a whole lot of people it can be just one.... A simple smile can change somebody's day completely. Small things can change the course of history forever...
And when people remember your story... What will they remember? When they tell your story will it be a good one? Will you have made such a difference that people remember your name... Not as the most famous person alive but one that changed the world for what they believed?
So a couple questions....
1) Will you become a story or a blank sheet of paper that a writer got writer's block on?
2) What will you do to change someone's life, someone's day, the course of history itself?
3) Will you stand for what you believe or will you follow the crowd?
4) What will you be remembered for?
5) Will what you do mirror the god you serve?
So I was watching Dr. Who yesterday... It was the end of season 5 and the doctor(matt smith) was again faced with the possibility of never existing... He was literally going backwards through his friends memories... And it was up to her to remember him so that he could exist... He ends up in amelia's bedroom when she was about 7 years old... she is dead asleep and he sits there... The line above is the beginning of what he has to say...
It's an interesting thought isn't it? Do we all just end up as stories in the end? Are we all just the figment of someone else's imagination?
Unlike the doctor we can't live forever... A) I wouldn't want to.. B) I don't think I could live with myself. But, what we do, can live forever... There is truth hidden behind that line... "we all end up as stories in the end." nobody lives forever but what we do can.
Now one of my favorite songs at the moment is called "turbo swag" by a band called attack attack! (us) and one of the most repeated lines in that song is...
"listen to what I say!
Do something that will last forever!"
The reason I'm tying these two together is because they work together... You only become a story if you do something that will last forever for someone... It doesn't have to be a whole lot of people it can be just one.... A simple smile can change somebody's day completely. Small things can change the course of history forever...
And when people remember your story... What will they remember? When they tell your story will it be a good one? Will you have made such a difference that people remember your name... Not as the most famous person alive but one that changed the world for what they believed?
So a couple questions....
1) Will you become a story or a blank sheet of paper that a writer got writer's block on?
2) What will you do to change someone's life, someone's day, the course of history itself?
3) Will you stand for what you believe or will you follow the crowd?
4) What will you be remembered for?
5) Will what you do mirror the god you serve?
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
Bicycle Gangs and Spider Eggs
This lovely afternoon i was taking trash out at my church. One of the secretaries had her sons with her. The boys were outside riding their bikes around and just enjoying the nice weather. Well there was a break in the playing and one of the boys found a eggsack of a spider out near the doors... and what did he do? What all little guys do! "Let's go show mom!" Well anyway, he walked all the way up the stairs with this little white webbed sack in hand, walked straight up to his mom and showed her. She looked at it and told him to take it back outside. To this he walked down the stairs... on his way down the other two boys had seen him and asked what he had... he showed them and one of the other boys said, "lets go crush it." To this he agreed and walked outside.. but as they were walking out the door the oldest of the three said, "Don't crush it.. think about it you'll be killing millions of innocent little lives...."
There were a couple things that stood out to me....
A) That kids has a vocabulary for being so young! I didn't know the word innocent till I was like twelve hahah. sorry that was random...
B) The interest kids have in reaking utter chaos on everything around them has always made me laugh especially when they are young and on top of the world... It kinda just made me laugh to hear the first thing out of the kids mouth was "let's go crush it!!" what is the enjoyment in destroying something incredibly intricate and beautiful?? i don't know. Thankfully I think that for most people that is just one of those passing fazes... cuz i know personally i enjoy beauty a lot more than i did when i was younger and i take time to try to appreciate it... but that's beside the point
C) "Don't crush it.. think about it you'll be killing millions of innocent little lives...." What do i say to that? what would you say? i thought it was kind of funny that he brought an almost pro-life argument into the mix... and the fact that he was about to go up in arms with his brother... But something else stood out to me.. He was concerned about a spider... a creature that most of us look on with disgust... a creature that makes girls jump up on tables screaming for some guy to get it... a creature that most people just shiver when they think about it... But it is a creature that the God of this universe (the One and Only God by the way) created with a specifice purpose... he uniquely created it... designed it.. formed it... there are several verses in the bible that tell of how much God cares for ALL of his creations... Even.. might i add... an eggsack of spider eggs that a six year old stumbled upon...
I just thought it was interesting that his brother... at the age that he is... recognized that... Good parenting? Yes. But also an actual relationship with the God of this universe... It's kinda crazy to think about but it's cool at the same time because would i have thought about that? NOPE! i wouldn't have thought about any of this until he said something about it... he wasn't even talking to me about it... But it was crazy awesome and inspiring so i thought i would write my thoughts down about it...
Leave some thoughts if you so choose.
Oh and just a random shout-out, Thanks boys for helping me clean and thanks for just being yourself! Made my day.
There were a couple things that stood out to me....
A) That kids has a vocabulary for being so young! I didn't know the word innocent till I was like twelve hahah. sorry that was random...
B) The interest kids have in reaking utter chaos on everything around them has always made me laugh especially when they are young and on top of the world... It kinda just made me laugh to hear the first thing out of the kids mouth was "let's go crush it!!" what is the enjoyment in destroying something incredibly intricate and beautiful?? i don't know. Thankfully I think that for most people that is just one of those passing fazes... cuz i know personally i enjoy beauty a lot more than i did when i was younger and i take time to try to appreciate it... but that's beside the point
C) "Don't crush it.. think about it you'll be killing millions of innocent little lives...." What do i say to that? what would you say? i thought it was kind of funny that he brought an almost pro-life argument into the mix... and the fact that he was about to go up in arms with his brother... But something else stood out to me.. He was concerned about a spider... a creature that most of us look on with disgust... a creature that makes girls jump up on tables screaming for some guy to get it... a creature that most people just shiver when they think about it... But it is a creature that the God of this universe (the One and Only God by the way) created with a specifice purpose... he uniquely created it... designed it.. formed it... there are several verses in the bible that tell of how much God cares for ALL of his creations... Even.. might i add... an eggsack of spider eggs that a six year old stumbled upon...
I just thought it was interesting that his brother... at the age that he is... recognized that... Good parenting? Yes. But also an actual relationship with the God of this universe... It's kinda crazy to think about but it's cool at the same time because would i have thought about that? NOPE! i wouldn't have thought about any of this until he said something about it... he wasn't even talking to me about it... But it was crazy awesome and inspiring so i thought i would write my thoughts down about it...
Leave some thoughts if you so choose.
Oh and just a random shout-out, Thanks boys for helping me clean and thanks for just being yourself! Made my day.
Sunday, September 11, 2011
Russian Doll
There are long drawn out words
Pressed in my mind
But I can't get them out
Oh I know that I'll grow old
But when I see her the words sound so absurd
She's a petite Russian doll
Brought down from heaven by jealous angels
Still she smiles bright like the stars
While they look down on her
Spinning to an invisible melody
fighting her fears
Crystal tears
When I sleep I dream of her
Though she seems so far far away
She stays here in my heart
When I think her
I don't know quite what to say
I wish I could cross her mind or be in her heart
But will I ever know what to say
I'll write a a handwritten note
And slide it under her door
With every sunset when her heart broke
I'll give her a reason to smile
Always, always and forever
I will always love her
Always, always and forever
I will always love her
Pressed in my mind
But I can't get them out
Oh I know that I'll grow old
But when I see her the words sound so absurd
She's a petite Russian doll
Brought down from heaven by jealous angels
Still she smiles bright like the stars
While they look down on her
Spinning to an invisible melody
fighting her fears
Crystal tears
When I sleep I dream of her
Though she seems so far far away
She stays here in my heart
When I think her
I don't know quite what to say
I wish I could cross her mind or be in her heart
But will I ever know what to say
I'll write a a handwritten note
And slide it under her door
With every sunset when her heart broke
I'll give her a reason to smile
Always, always and forever
I will always love her
Always, always and forever
I will always love her
Retro Love... Life in Black and White
Do this... But don't do this...
Back in the day... they knew what love was... Christian values were actually enstated... dating wasn't associated with what it is today... Guys didn't have their girlfriends over for days at a time, just to sleep with them... they didn't move in together until AFTER they were married... they didn't say i love you unless they actually meant it... they asked the fathers permission to date the girl... there was a level of commitment that sadly the generation that we are in has lost... The girl was RESPECTED (honestly to all the duece-bag guys out there... WHAT THE HECK ARE YOU DOING?! hurting her is going to get you nowhere! Ok, rant aside) Chivalry was still alive and well... and Dating was actually done with the thought that maybe it could end in marriage... How many of you are just doing it to get cheap thrills? get what you want out of them and then you're done? A) you're a jerk... and B) Way to ruin her for someone else... How many of you girls are just using him because you want your hand held or you want someone to call you baby? Because you don't want to be labled single? because you are just wanting to get your "needs" satisfied and then you want the next best thing?
Really? What has this generation come to?
Call me old fashioned if you want.
Back in the day when there was a "CODE OF CONDUCT," there was a black and white... there were do's and don't's... and if you crossed that, well... let's just say i you better hope that you were a fast runner...hahah, No! you were dead meat! Seriously i know from talking to my grandmother, Her dad was not afraid of going to jail to protect his daughter.... To protect her honor... and i can tell you if my grandpa would have stepped over the boundaries my great-grandfather had set up... I'm pretty sure i wouldn't exsist haha.
But also back then.. Chivalry and respect were important... Men held doors open for their dates... paid for the meal... walked the girl home or up to the front door... actually listened to her and cared about what she had to say... spent time with her family to get to know them more... sometimes even spent time working for the girls dad (how many guys are willing to do that today?) helped the mother with dishes or even sometimes cooking... (just a side note for the girls... if he is willing to do all of that... and he respects you for you not who he "Wants/excpects" you to be... he may be a keeper.)
I wish things were like that today honestly... because i see too many guys being jerks to their girlfriends... and too many girls doing things behind their boyfriends back.... too many couples having kids out of wed-lock... too many hearts being broken... too many backs being stabbed.... no fidelity.. no commitment...
STOP IT!!!! GET SOME PERSPECTIVE!!!
I'm thankful for the way that my girlfriends dad is going about things... sometimes it is hard to understand but i appreciate the way that he is treating me dating his daughter and the way that he talks to me and asks me questions... sometimes it's hard to read him but still i really do appreciate him and respect him...
So Mr. Knudson if you're reading this thank you :)
But yeah... Um if i offended anybody... sorry it doesn't really bother me all that much... im sorry that you were offended.. but, these are my beliefs and thoughts... if you don't agree with them.. that's fine... i don't expect you to agree with me... I just thought i would throw what i believe out there....
if you have any comments please do by all means i would love to here what you say.... if you have arguments though.... do not put them as comments... send me an email... tell me who you are and i would be more than glad to talk to you about it...
To E-mail me: fusesandtimedelays@hotmail.com
Back in the day... they knew what love was... Christian values were actually enstated... dating wasn't associated with what it is today... Guys didn't have their girlfriends over for days at a time, just to sleep with them... they didn't move in together until AFTER they were married... they didn't say i love you unless they actually meant it... they asked the fathers permission to date the girl... there was a level of commitment that sadly the generation that we are in has lost... The girl was RESPECTED (honestly to all the duece-bag guys out there... WHAT THE HECK ARE YOU DOING?! hurting her is going to get you nowhere! Ok, rant aside) Chivalry was still alive and well... and Dating was actually done with the thought that maybe it could end in marriage... How many of you are just doing it to get cheap thrills? get what you want out of them and then you're done? A) you're a jerk... and B) Way to ruin her for someone else... How many of you girls are just using him because you want your hand held or you want someone to call you baby? Because you don't want to be labled single? because you are just wanting to get your "needs" satisfied and then you want the next best thing?
Really? What has this generation come to?
Call me old fashioned if you want.
Back in the day when there was a "CODE OF CONDUCT," there was a black and white... there were do's and don't's... and if you crossed that, well... let's just say i you better hope that you were a fast runner...hahah, No! you were dead meat! Seriously i know from talking to my grandmother, Her dad was not afraid of going to jail to protect his daughter.... To protect her honor... and i can tell you if my grandpa would have stepped over the boundaries my great-grandfather had set up... I'm pretty sure i wouldn't exsist haha.
But also back then.. Chivalry and respect were important... Men held doors open for their dates... paid for the meal... walked the girl home or up to the front door... actually listened to her and cared about what she had to say... spent time with her family to get to know them more... sometimes even spent time working for the girls dad (how many guys are willing to do that today?) helped the mother with dishes or even sometimes cooking... (just a side note for the girls... if he is willing to do all of that... and he respects you for you not who he "Wants/excpects" you to be... he may be a keeper.)
I wish things were like that today honestly... because i see too many guys being jerks to their girlfriends... and too many girls doing things behind their boyfriends back.... too many couples having kids out of wed-lock... too many hearts being broken... too many backs being stabbed.... no fidelity.. no commitment...
STOP IT!!!! GET SOME PERSPECTIVE!!!
I'm thankful for the way that my girlfriends dad is going about things... sometimes it is hard to understand but i appreciate the way that he is treating me dating his daughter and the way that he talks to me and asks me questions... sometimes it's hard to read him but still i really do appreciate him and respect him...
So Mr. Knudson if you're reading this thank you :)
But yeah... Um if i offended anybody... sorry it doesn't really bother me all that much... im sorry that you were offended.. but, these are my beliefs and thoughts... if you don't agree with them.. that's fine... i don't expect you to agree with me... I just thought i would throw what i believe out there....
if you have any comments please do by all means i would love to here what you say.... if you have arguments though.... do not put them as comments... send me an email... tell me who you are and i would be more than glad to talk to you about it...
To E-mail me: fusesandtimedelays@hotmail.com
Saturday, September 10, 2011
Mmm... Wow!
I remember when....
When you see that prhase... what do YOU remember? what recollections come back to you? Your 4th birthday? A really fun trip you took with your family when you were a kid? Your first kiss? Getting an A+ on a test that you didn't study at all for the night before? What do you remember? Well if you are like me or most of human kind... there are times when we forget what day it is... We forget the small things... But at the same time... there are moments that we will never forget... Im sure there is a moment in everybodies life where they could tell me exactly what they were thinking, wearing, smelling, tasting, their surroundings, the music that was playing in the background. They can remember everything that happened at one single point in time.
Well one moment i remember... One moment that i will never forget.
September 15th of 2010 was a night that changed my life forever... It turned my world upside down. I went to downtown Ames, Iowa with some friends to go to a street show. But that night i heard and saw something that took my breath away... made my heart stop... That night i was walking on the sidewalk towards a photography shop. and my ears were greeted by a sound. Someone was singing near by. The sound was the most beautiful sound that i have ever heard. Honestly! i actually stopped on the sidewalk and just listened for a few moments, then i kept walking and entered the little shop. The sound was beautiful... i was wondering what the owner would look like... I walked in and there sitting on a small stool, guitar in hand, and singing her little lungs out was the most beautiful women i have ever seen in my life (and yes i will stick by that till the day i die... just saying). She was wearing a long-sleeved grey shirt, blue jeans, and a pair of converse, her hair was curly and pulled back into a pony tail.
It's funny cuz words can't describe how truly beautiful she was and how truly beautiful the sound of her voice was. that's just a side note but i just thought i would add that.
Anyway.. i had two friends with me and they introduced me to her... i really couldn't think of anything to say so i just smiled and nodded. She looked at me smiled back. she started playing again and i became entranced in that sound... no joke. I couldn't think, breathe, my heart stopped with ever word she sang.
ok now you are probably thing. "Wow, You are a hopeless romantic man." Well... i'm not hopeless cuz she is now mine.
That is the memory that always comes to my mind though. It's the night that i met the Girl that turned my world upside down.. i met the girl that makes me the luckiest man alive. It's the night that i met the girl i love with all that is in me.
That's my random memory.. yeah, i could have chosen so many different ones but... honestly that one is the one that is one of the most important memories i have.... i wouldn't be where i am today without that moment.
anyways
Auf Wiedersehen
When you see that prhase... what do YOU remember? what recollections come back to you? Your 4th birthday? A really fun trip you took with your family when you were a kid? Your first kiss? Getting an A+ on a test that you didn't study at all for the night before? What do you remember? Well if you are like me or most of human kind... there are times when we forget what day it is... We forget the small things... But at the same time... there are moments that we will never forget... Im sure there is a moment in everybodies life where they could tell me exactly what they were thinking, wearing, smelling, tasting, their surroundings, the music that was playing in the background. They can remember everything that happened at one single point in time.
Well one moment i remember... One moment that i will never forget.
September 15th of 2010 was a night that changed my life forever... It turned my world upside down. I went to downtown Ames, Iowa with some friends to go to a street show. But that night i heard and saw something that took my breath away... made my heart stop... That night i was walking on the sidewalk towards a photography shop. and my ears were greeted by a sound. Someone was singing near by. The sound was the most beautiful sound that i have ever heard. Honestly! i actually stopped on the sidewalk and just listened for a few moments, then i kept walking and entered the little shop. The sound was beautiful... i was wondering what the owner would look like... I walked in and there sitting on a small stool, guitar in hand, and singing her little lungs out was the most beautiful women i have ever seen in my life (and yes i will stick by that till the day i die... just saying). She was wearing a long-sleeved grey shirt, blue jeans, and a pair of converse, her hair was curly and pulled back into a pony tail.
It's funny cuz words can't describe how truly beautiful she was and how truly beautiful the sound of her voice was. that's just a side note but i just thought i would add that.
Anyway.. i had two friends with me and they introduced me to her... i really couldn't think of anything to say so i just smiled and nodded. She looked at me smiled back. she started playing again and i became entranced in that sound... no joke. I couldn't think, breathe, my heart stopped with ever word she sang.
ok now you are probably thing. "Wow, You are a hopeless romantic man." Well... i'm not hopeless cuz she is now mine.
That is the memory that always comes to my mind though. It's the night that i met the Girl that turned my world upside down.. i met the girl that makes me the luckiest man alive. It's the night that i met the girl i love with all that is in me.
That's my random memory.. yeah, i could have chosen so many different ones but... honestly that one is the one that is one of the most important memories i have.... i wouldn't be where i am today without that moment.
anyways
Auf Wiedersehen
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)